What a week and weekend we have had. All together the traveling and sleeping have been hectic. But for the most part everything is great. Dan has been working very hard on potty-training Harley, for months now he has been going #1 in the potty chair but yesterday for the first time ever he comes to us and says "I have to poo-poo!" We rushed him to the bathroom and successfully had Harley do #2 in the potty chair. We were so very proud of him. Our task while he was on Christmas break was to have Harley fully potty trained in time for his return to school. Were so excited for him and for us. Hurray..

Alright now for some sour news. Dan and I are leaving Ponca City and The Salvation Army all together. We will no longer be dedicating our lives for the hope of one day being an officer. All I can say is that AOK sucks and takes things beyond what needs to happen. I have waited so long to say so much and since I held my tongue because of one day my enemies might be ones I need to kiss butt .Well here's is to officers who stole Kettle money and property of TSA, we told DHQ and they just promoted him Major and gave him and very nice appointment. We since then have been at the bottom of the fish bowl. Who cares I don't, its TSA loss. I can now move on and settle down with my family, have a career and my kids have long lasting friends.

I'm excited with our new future and look forward to the endless possibilities. As for The Salvation Army, since when did you start playing God and decide who is acceptable for officership. You don't decide whether a person is worthy enough for serving. Its a game for you, a business; its all about who will make The Salvation Army look good and what they can benefit from the individual not how the individual would help lead people to God and would be great in promoting its mission statements. But you,  DC's and DFB's and anyone who stands in the way of allowing us and many others not to fulfil our calling will answer to God for not allowing his chosen people serve him.

Blessing to The Salvation Army may it find its way back to our traditional roots, the time when William Booth ran The Salvation Army.

I edited names because well, I just did I'm a woman and I have that right....lol

Lord, be with me. I preached the first advent Sunday it was on peace. At the end I gave everyone a challenge, to have peace and to give all things over to Chirst and not to sweat the small stuff. Well the Lord was on me all week, testing me. I have not been strong and Satan has been stepping on my toes, teasing me with small stuff of the office. Especially with one employee. I know its not right but if i could I would knock he down.... Now thats not peace but that woman just gets under me so bad. What really fustrating is that I honestly whole heartedly went to seek a friend-ship with her. That was until she let personal get involved with work and then attitude. I'm constantly reminded that I need to be gentle and understanding to her. I'm so past that with her. She takes and never gives and doesn't accept Christ no matter what we have tried. But to get what she wants she uses people like puppets. Thats what get me. I can see her true colors. Even Christ had he limits, he would pursue people and speak with them but after so much rejuection Christ knew that they weren't ready that She is not ready to accept me or us. So I wash my hands of her.

This may make me a wrong leader but this also makes me strong to walk away from a situation that is not properous in any way. People may see it as not being a true christain and so what don't judge me you know very little about me to see the whole picture. And every persons point of view is different so I don't ask for support in the end I will have to answer to Christ if I'm truly wrong until then keep you thoughts to yourself. But cause their you opinion and only yours.

Yes, there is a lot of anger in my words but its also so much more than that. I have so much luggage and I'm tired of carrying it. But through this all my honey, the love of my life is supportative of every and all decisions of my life. We stand as a fortress. With God as our foundation we can not be moved from one another. Just as I have supported my husband on his views he has with me. My marriage is my blessing from God. Going to my best friend in the whole world and telling him I feel with out having a lecture of whats wrong or right , what I should be doing or aren't doing. He just listens and supports. He  puts up with so much and for that, I thank my God. I have a great marriage and from a far theres its even more beautiful. I wonder what if he truly know that I thank him for not puting my views aside and thinking that I'm wrong or that I don't count. With Dan my voice counts and matters to him.

He's a man after my heart. Thanks babe.Alright this might not have been clear but who cares. I just need to write and clear my head. This has nothing to do with anyone or my bosses. This is my feeling and noting more. Its not offend anyone just speaking out loud and venting.

Good night...

Alright its been a while but things are moving so fast here. I hope that I get some rest before Thanksgiving and Christmas hit.. Man where has the year gone...

Love

Jen